Self-Centeredness Is The Root Of My Problems
It was a little over four years since I started to learn the meaning of self-centeredness. The
essence of this word is totally selfish and unable to see the "forest
for the trees" , or more simply , that the only concern of my plans ,
drawings and various agendas , if you want. This has resulted in many years of thinking only of myself and be able to have compassion and empathy for others . Regardless of my brothers or situations that could well be happening. And brothers and sisters , I mean my peers . It
also meant simply to worry about my own pleasures and how to acquire
them, and overall I think that the world revolves around me .
The funny thing is that we all start egocentrism in life this way. We are born helpless and totally dependent on others for all the needs before us . And that's the cycle of life , if you want. We
, of course , in the center of the universe and all involved in some
way with us at this stage of the life cycle meet all our needs . Without even trying, and get over a lot of attention and love. And rightly so .Unfortunately , as we age to be the center of everything starts to change . We found that there are others who also have the same basic human rights , needs and desires . Suddenly , I find that I am the most important person who has drew a breath of life.Shocking
at first when I found it, and my first reaction was anger , disbelief ,
self-pity , and a host of other negative human emotions . After all , I had become very used to being around me. It is at this stage that all finally arrived , circumstances began to change.After
my own selfishness and self-centeredness , I always try to force my own
will on others in different ways, all in order to get what I wanted and
what I want or want. Of course , the result of all this has led to nothing but the futility and frustration for me. Besides creating strained or broken relationships with others at home, at work and in my social circles. Then,
little by little , I began to see that my "I" , selfishness and
self-centeredness again became a liability and not an asset. I lived life on the basis of unsatisfied demands and I was very sad and angry , to say the least .When I finally began to see and know , with the help of others who have been in my way , I decided I had to change. So what I started doing . And through prayer and the grace from above , that began to occur . I started to change my selfish around me, the vision of life. And of course , I am very grateful for that. But I also learned that getting rid of the "I " does not occur at once. I have to look every day the help I need to be free of me.But
for me , in the end , it was my own pride or arrogance , which was the
largest block for progress to be released from the bondage of ego.......